1. to some extent i think that almost everyone deserves to go to hell. i think that everyone had committed crimes worthy of that. it could also go that no one deserves to go to hell. i think that everyone has committed crimes and good things, and i cant see how one can out weigh the others. i have a hard time ranking crimes as more ok or worse. i think everyone will go through hell or has gone through hell. i don't think that anyone deserves to go to hell eternally. but i do think that everyone has sins that need to be punished as well as good things they have done that deserve reward. so everyone to me passes through hell before reaching heaven. anything sinful you do is worthy of sending you to hell.
2. the punishments in hell are to fit the person. this is because not everyone responds or hates the same things. hell is centered around how to punish the person in the most effective manner. it will put you in the situation most painful for the person.
3. my hell has no variation. if i go to hell, and if it is what i think it to be i will, it will be stagnent with no room for growth. hell is large enough to fit everyone but it is crowded. there is little room for movement and the constant busy exhaustion of being around people all the time. and the people cannot be blocked out. but even though there is the constant being around people it is impossible to make a connection. its like being stuck in a place where everyone speaks a different language and you only get the down sides of being around people and none of the benefits. i do not think there is any sharp pain in hell, because i would rather feel pain than nothing, as demented as that sounds. i think pain is a slow ache that you cant ignore or get rid of. its jus there leaving an almost numb feeling, but a numbing ache. and it is cold and hopeless... like the feeling of being out in the cold too long without enough jackets, but only so cold, so you stay conscious through the cold.
4. hell does not choose to release you. in hell you are lost forever stuck in an insolvable maze. in hell there is no help, and there is no hope. in hell you loose all hope of ever escaping. it isn't necessarily eternal, but it feels like it when in hell. and you can only escape when you become aware. there are lots of exits in hell, its just hell is designed to keep your focus off them and onto the lost feeling, the hopelessness, the fear, the ache, the exhaustion or the loneliness. but if you become aware you can find help and escape. you have to be willing to ask for help, and willing of change. you stay there as long as you like. nothing forces you to stay, except your sins.
5. hell cannot have a symbol because it varies too much between people. i don't know how to put a symbol to all of the bad things that happen in the world. its impossible to describe it well enough with words and just as unlikely to use a symbol to describe it. we use the word hell to try to represent something thats hard for us to even fathom and its the closest symbol that i know of that we can make. we could draw a symbol but it would be hard for that symbol to mean anymore than the word hell. a symbol for the hell i think i would go into would be a sand tunnel maze. i have constant nightmares of small sand tunnels that i have to crawl through that are so small you can only army crawl through them. this brings feelings of being trapped, lost and lonely and these are the things i struggle most with. i don't believe that my tunnel is the universal symbol for hell, i don't believe there is one, but that is mine.
6. the idea of wanting to send those you love to hell. if you love someone its hard to think that they deserve to go to hell. thinking of your friends or family in hell is hard and it hurts. its easy to send those you don't like or disagree with or simply don't know to hell. there is no feelings in your heart other than morality that would make you care that they're there. if you do believe in a hell then you have to believe that there are people there and you don't have any attachment to them. but once you start realizing that these people are loved too, even if they did really bad things and hurt lots of people like hitler did, they still have those that care about them, and they care about others as much as you do. these are mostly people who made mistakes and didn't realize that what they did was wrong. would you really send someone to hell for ignorance? would you like to be sent to hell for ignorance? would you like to live eternally in hell in constant suffering of everything you hate and dislike and what causes you pain and discomfort. sending yourself to hell is hard as well. hell does not have to be eternal and i believe that everyone goes there at some point. but everyone also gets to visit heaven for a time too.
